Thursday, January 12, 2012
Here we go again. Sigh.....
Well, guess what? A month ago, I found two new lumps. I've gone through a full cycle to see if they'd shrink, go away, or grow. They've not shrunk, they're still there and the one feels slightly bigger than it did last month.
My dilemma is, I'm about almost totally sure these are more harmless cysts. I was tempted to just keep watching and go in May as scheduled. But these lumps are in my breast. So today I sucked it up and called for an appointment. And wouldn't you know it? For the first time EVER, I had a male operator when I called camo. What are the odds? So I'm going to see my PCM on January 23rd and we will go from there. Any and all prayers would certainly be appreciated. I guess it's better to go in and feel stupid, than to take a chance that there could be something bad. Thanks!!
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Oh what a night, Texas style!!!
The musicians were incredible that night.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Music.
When I was about five, my older brother got a toodloop radio for his birthday. I remember it was blue and I was jealous that my brother could listen to music any time or anywhere he wanted. Back then, the only thing we had was WABC.
A couple of years later, my uncle gave me a stuffed mouse with a radio inside. I was in heaven. I loved listening to the radio while riding my bike. It was amazing being able to have music everywhere I went. I was hooked.
Years went by. During those years, I had boomboxes, and walkmans and cassette players. The novelty of taking my music with me never went away.
After growing up, having music was was still a huge part of my life but it was limited to my car.
A few years ago, I heard about this gadget called an ipod. I was unfamiliar with with the whole music download process so it just seemed beyond me. Itunes, ipod, imac, ihadnoclue. Whatever.
Then one night, my son won an ipod shuffle. He went home and started an itunes account. It was easy!! The next week, I bought myself a shuffle. Just like that, I had my beloved music back. In a little gadget the size of a matchbook. I was hooked.
Since then, I've gone from a shuffle to a nano to my current itouch. I take it everywhere with me. It's an everyday part of my life. Amazing that such a little device can have the capacity to hold so much music.and.make such happiness for so many people. All from a man who dropped out of college and built a computer in his garage. Rest in peace, Steve Jobs. You've most definitely made a.ding in the universe.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
A special day, today!!
I put on that uniform for the first time and suddenly it was like the blinders were lifted. I understood why I got a lump in my throat whenever I hear our National Anthem. I realized why we observe holidays like Veteran's Day and Memorial day. The red, white and blue of our flag became almost dazzling to me as i would salute it every day.
I suddenly was a part of an amazing family who lived and served all over the world. Never again would i feel left out, lonely or a misfit, as i did so often growing up.
As I sit here, I'm struck by what a different time we live in. When i was active duty, war was just an exercise in a hangar. I went through each day confident that the airmen i served with would be there every day. The only danger we faced was getting busted for drinking underage in the dorm in the middle of the night with our boyfriend.
Two towers still rose up magestically in Manhattan and our nation was innocent and secure. Today it's a whole different military. Please keep our airmen, soldiers and marines in your thoughts and prayer as they serve in such different times. these people are truly putting their lives on the line for us every day and they deserve our respect and our prayers.
The first day of the rest of my life.
I put on that uniform for the first time and suddenly it was like the blinders were lifted. I understood why I got a lump in my throat whenever I hear our National Anthem. I realized why we observe holidays like Veteran's Day and Memorial day. The red, white and blue of our flag became almost dazzling to me as i would salute it every day. I suddenly was a part of an amazing family who lived and served all over the world. Never again would i feel left out, lonely or a misfit, as i did so often growing up.
As I sit here, I'm struck by what a different time we live in. When i was active duty, war was just an exercise in a hangar. I went through each day confident that the airmen i served with would be there every day. The only danger we faced was getting busted for drinking underage in the dorm in the middle of the night with our boyfriend. Two towers still rose up magestically in Manhattan and our nation was innocent and secure. Today it's a whole different military. Please keep our airmen, soldiers and marines in your thoughts and prayer as they serve in such different times. these people are truly putting their lives on the line for us every day and they deserve our respect and our prayers.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Ten years ago.
It was Tuesday. I dropped my toddler off at my next door neighbor's, then headed to Glenmore Elementary, where I was a volunteer in Josh's second grade class. Like I said, the day was beautiful. As I was pulling into the school parking lot, U2's Beautiful Day was playing on the radio. Ironically, that would be the last song I heard on the radio for many days to come. And to this day, hearing that song reminds me of that morning.
It was a busy morning in Mrs Williams room. I was busy helping the kids aith a reading assignment, when I hear an odd request over the intrcom. The office was asking for all teachers' aides to report immediately then a little while later for anyone that had a TV with antennaes to please bring them down to the office. For some reason, it reminded me of when the space shuttle Challenger blew up. I asked Ms Williams if something was happening in the news. She handed me a bit of paper that said that a plane had crashed into the Twin Towers. I had been to the twin towers as a teenager and I thought that maybe the weather was bad or it was a stunt gone horribly wrong. At that point terrorism hadn't crossed my mind.
Then the teacher's aide came back with news that another plane had hit the towers and they thought that it was intentional. The aide told me to call my husband. By the time I had called Rick, one of the towers had collapsed and there were rumors all over the place about other attacks around the country.
My husband's base was on lockdown. At that point, I was in shock. My husband was telling me all this and half my brain was registering and the other half refused to proccess any of it. At one point, I found my self asking Rick what time he would be home for lunch. It was a weird and scary conversation. I went back to Ms Williams' room and read to a couple of chilren. None of the kids knew what had happened. Though later, a fourth grader returning from a dental appointment would leak the news to his classmates. So the principal was pretty much forced to tell the older students what had happened. A part of me wanted to scoop up my kids right then and there and take them home, but I figured that they would be safe at Glenmore and i was right.
I went down the the cafeteria and loved on Benji and loved on Josh before going home. I had to get let out of the school to leave. We were on complete lockdown. The rest of the day was kind of a blur. family members and friends calling to see what we had heard and to update us.
I went to the school to pick my kids up and they had their hands full. Since the base was on lockdown, there were dozens of children who either had no way home or no one waiting for them when they got there. Everybody at Glenmore handled everything with such grace. I was so grateful that my kids were there that day. Now ten years have passed. We must never forget that day.
The rest of that week was completely horrifying. My prayers are with all of us that are affected by that day.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Beyond the Lights!
This weekend was incredible! And the Kyle encounters were just a small part of it. First off, i'd like to say, that in my opinion, the most special part of the weekend was being able to work with my son, Josh. I'm so proud of him and the way he's grown up. he has a heart for helping people and it really showed this weekend.
Friday morning, we drove to Bastrop. Beautiful weather, amazing drive. We found the resort with no problem and reported to the club house to get to work. The day before, I had been emailed a schedule of where I'd be working, but it became clear almost immediately that I wouldn't be following that schedule. The event coordinator and the volunteer coordinators were running around making everything go smoothly.
At first, we were kind of standing around, unsure of what to do . Josh and i saw Kyle briefly. He thanked us for being there. Josh told him that he had a DVD for him of Josh's latest movie, a zombie movie. Kyle thought that was cool and asked if it was fiolmed on a super 8. When we told him what kind of camera it was actually folmed on, he totally got it. Josh was impressed with that. Josh was also thrilled to meet a fellow film maker that day, who actually is going to come to the set and help Josh and film.
Josh and i set up swag bags and did some basic busy work, then I got put on a golf cart to hand out refreshments too. I relieved a few people out on the course and Josh got put on the seventeenth hole. That's the hole that Kyle, Brad and some of the other cast were at most of the day. Josh said he enjoyed watching for a little while, but then it got old. I think he was out there like three hours. I was on the thirteenth hole for a while, then I got relieved.
Aftrer getting back to the club house, i was supposed to have lunch, but ended up skipping because of the line. I went back to the ball room and help set up for the gala. I ended up putting together these shelves with scissors and needlenose pliers with a couple from Bastrop who were volunteering. One of the coolest things about this were some of the awesome volunteers I met. There were people there from out of state who flew in to help and make a weekend out of it.
Josh came back from his assignments so we three were able to eat dinner together. After dinner, we set up the swag bags for the gala.
Josh and I ended up getting assigned to sell candid shots from FNL that evening. i think we sold about a half dozen pics or so. We saw Kyle that night and spoke to him for a few moments. He seemed really appreciative of all of us volunteers and made a point to thank us all.
Josh went up and gave him his movie. Kyle started talking to him about it and next thing you know, Kyle is asking for our phone number so he can call Josh and tall him what he thought of the movie. Then Kyle said to Josh, "I need to come work for you. " Josh was just thrilled. At one point in the conversation, I put my arms around Josh and told Kyle how proud i was of Josh and Kyle was like awwww!!
We met an online friend that night, our very own Josy, who is originally from France. She came in just for the gala in hopes of meeting Kyle. At one point, she was walking by and Kyle was up ahead. She went over to meet him and Jessie and i went with her. We were both a little irritated because the people that were talking to Kyle saw us standing there waiting and just kept bending Kyle's ear.
Finally, we had our turn. Josy was awesome. She went right up and started talking to him and took pics with him. He was really impressed that she came from France. I had made a comment about adopting her and Kyle was like, "you're adopting a French girl?" " so when we posed for pics, instead of saying cheese, he said "fromage", which, is French for cheese. It was awesome. Josy was so cool, calm and collected. It was awesome to meet her that night.
We took turns guarding the volunteer room and at one point, Josh and I went to the bakery. I was thrilled that they had chocolate croissants, my very favorite thing in the whole world!!
It was then that we ran into Kyle's younger daughter. We chatted with her for a little bit, then went back to the volunteer room. After a while, we helped out with the auction, then went to our hotel. We were so tired by that pojnt, that we actually got on the elevator and just stood there. Didn't press any buttons, just stood there and were all surprised that the elevator didn't move.
We got some sleep and then it was time to go back to BTL, for the disc golf tourney. I'm sorry, call it what you want, it was throwing a frisbee into a basket, plain and simple. Josh and I got assigned to hospitality and we had a blast. We were all happy with our assignments. My son took us offroading in the golf cart a few times, but i didn't fall out, so it's all good.
Josh and i seemed like we were following Kyle and his team around a lot but they stayed hydrated, which was a good thing. I had a bad moment when I stepped into a hole and twisted my ankle, but thank God, it didn't really start hurting until today. Nothing serious, it just feels like a pulled muscle. Before we knew it, it was time for lunch.
We ended up getting a table, right behind Kyle, who was soon joined by his wife and daughter. We ate lunch and were getting ready to leave, so we stopped and said goodbye to everyone, including Kyle. When we said goodbye, he stopped what he was doing and stood up, gave me a big hug and shook hands with Josh. I told him that I was so proud of him and that the event was awesome. i thanked him for letting me be a part of it and he thanked me and Josh for coming out and helping. He had a flower behind his ear from his daughter. Too cute. He then said, "you've met my wife." and i said no i hadn't, so he introduced us. I then told her "I hope I'm not being inappropriate here, but I know how hard it was when you all were doing the commuting thing, and being a military spouse, I know it's never easy doing the single parent thing and I've been praying for you." She smiled and said that the prayers worked.
Kyle, then went on about how our family has supported the show since the beginning and that Josh has made a zombie movie. Kyle seems really thrilled with that and he said he was going to watch it soon. I then gave his wife a big hug and told her how great it was to meet her and that I'm still praying for their family. She seemed touched. The only awkwardness was when Kyle was saying about our family, he and brad and some of the other folks at their table started clapping for us. I was like really? I was a background extra.
Then it was time to go home. We drove home to more beautiful weather and made it without any problems. never even had to stop for gas.
Speaking for myself, I felt like I was so blessed to be a part of this weekend. Gridiron heroes and The Buoniconti Fund are doing awesome things to raise money and awareness for spinal cord injuries. All of these people coming together for such an amazing cause was just humbling. God bless these people.
Josh got to do something he's never done before. I stepped way out of my comfort zone this weekend. I'm not great with driving to strange places, meeting strange people and doing different things, so this was huge for me. I feel like I can move mountains now. Well, at least as long as i have a good map and clear directions anyway. It was awesome working with my son. I got to watch him work hard and be a good person this weekend. I'm so proud of him.
I also felt like those years on FNL were appreciated. Brad, at one point, stopped me and Josh and introduced us to some friends he knew from highschool. he was like, yeah, the Zellos ARE Dillon. Every game, every church scene, every restaurant scene, there they were, supporting our show. I never knew anyone noticed. I have to admit, it felt good to be appreciated. And having Kyle, our favorite actor, knowing our family's name, wow!! What are the odds and how cool is that?
Lots of money was raised. Lots of memories were made and it was just awesome all around.
Sorry, there are hardly any pics from me. I was so busy working, it didn't even dawn on me to go around getting pics with with the different cast members. I got a few with Kyle which I will post soon, but that's it. It just didn't seem the right thing to do, just not what this weekend was about, as far as I'm concerned.
So, that was my weekend in a nutshell. Had a blast. Helped a great cause. Can't wait till next year!
Here's a video showing exactly why this weekend meant so much to our family.
